Scream

How can this be fair?!
How can I allow him to be in my head, how could I continue to let him torment me?
It was like a disease; all I wanted was to feel better, all I wanted was to heal, all I wanted was to stop the pain. It had subsided, it was growing less heart breaking. But I still felt entirely consumed with sadness on occasion, and it spread through my body. I felt incapacitated as his venom seeped through my veins and caused a burning sensation.
I could be strong in moments I felt needed and loved. I could be strong in moments when I didn't need to care about myself and my pain. I could be strong when I was fulfilling a purpose. It was the being alone and feeling inadequate that brought me down.
I felt the pain wash over me and I succumbed to it.
I wanted to be alright.