Waiting

I lay here in bed unable to fall back asleep after being unable to fall asleep the night before.
My heart is ripping itself inside out, while my stomach tries unsuccessfully to do party tricks. I don't understand the silence.
I left more than enough messages, so calling again would be shame. Who knows if you will answer anyways? But I do call again and still no answer.
It's too early to know. I guess your phone is turned off or on silent, but as to why, I have no answer, and my heart breaks with every unanswered ring.
I don't know what is happening or why you would do this. What explanation is there for this behavior? The worst part is, you provide no explanation.
So I don't know what to do except try to forget that I want you to call.