Numb

Feeling anything would be better than this.
This scared me--this apathy. I couldn't bring myself to care about anything. Sadness and pain didn't feel good, but I would rather have that clearly defined pain rather than a lack of feeling.
I couldn't be as sad or as angry as I had been, but I couldn't be as happy either. I couldn't feel the passion that I knew so well and thrived on.
Is this how most people feel?
Devoid of strong emotion?
This was so weird for me.
I wanted to be angry, be sad, be hurt, because that meant that I could be happy.
But no emotion came.
I sat in perfect empathy.
I hope this goes away soon.
Maybe it's the busyness of my schedule, drowning out any real emotion.
I hope this goes away soon.